How successful do you feel?
This morning, we sent our tax documents to our accountant (a lot earlier than usual! 🥳). Organizing those documents and accounts also allows us to reflect on the past year financially. Looking at that final “Net Profit” number summarizes the year, and when I break it down, while we finished in the black, I realize that I could’ve made more working fast food. That’s not a great feeling. It feels like failure.
That said, we’re still a new company, and on average, businesses take two to three years to become profitable. We’ve been a business for 2.5 years, and financial success in the TTRPG industry is nearly impossible, so we’re thankful that our bills are all paid thanks to some other income sources. Our kids ask, “What’s for dinner tonight,” not, “Will there be dinner tonight?” We have good medical insurance. And the “Net Profit” is smaller partly because we’ve invested a lot back into the company so we can make some very cool resources soon.
But more importantly, we’re able to work from home and meet our kids’ disability needs. I get to spend every day with my amazing wife by my side. I get to spend every day working on D&D designs and call it “work.” (OK, last year, I spent 42% of my time on design and the rest on other tasks, but that’s still about 1000 hours.) I got to pay several disabled, neurodivergent, and mentally ill artists, writers, editors, and consultants for fantastic work. I got to talk to lots of cool people. And I got to work with all of you to make lives better through TTRPGs! That feels like success!
Pursuing success can often feel like the Chases rules in the DMG (Chapter 8) — a bit complicated and dependent on a lot of die rolls. When you accomplish your goals, it can feel more like luck than accomplishment. When you don’t attain those goals, you might feel like giving up.
But like D&D, it’s not about “winning.” Like D&D, gold has its uses, but it has limits, and experience and personal milestones give you a lot more. And in your daily life, like D&D, if you benefit from the game along the way and help others do the same, you don’t have to wait for a year-end report to feel successful.
But even on those days when you roll one crit failure after another, you’re still valuable, because as good as success can feel, your value doesn’t come from success. You’re important before you even roll initiative on your day. Because just by being here with us, you make our lives better, and we’re honored to have you at our big table. |