My life is a series of gifts.
I'm a white cishet protestant male in the USA. I have ADHD and am somewhat hard of hearing, but I've learned to use those more to my benefit than detriment. I grew up with parents who constantly told me that they loved me and were proud of me. My wife loves spending time with me. I have a knack for problem solving, finding creative solutions to nearly any challenge I've encountered, usually so outside-the-box that nobody has ever tried it before.
But with great power comes great responsibility. 🕷️
Do you ever feel like you're not doing enough? Chronic fatigue or depression makes your To Do list grow faster than you can check off the items. Time spent on medical appointments, filling out forms, or sitting on hold consumes your time like a Bag of Devouring. A Survival check for you means spending hours online, researching and looking for solutions to get through your day.
You know those days when, at the end of the day, you're exhausted, but you can't point to anything you accomplished? Yeah.
I'm gradually learning that, no matter how many features your subclass gives you, you still can't do everything. Even the Wish spell comes at a massive cost, including necrotic damage from other spellcasting and, "In addition, your Strength drops to 3, if it isn't 3 or lower already, for 2d4 days."
You wouldn't expect to pour more than one potion from a potion vial, nor could you drink it with a Reaction. And you shouldn't expect to pour more from yourself than you can contain, nor faster than you can pour what you have.
You are amazing, but you're only who you are, not more, and not less. And that's exactly how much you need to be. Well done.
For more on this topic, check out our recent episode of Gaining Advantage — Outrage Fatigue: Taking a Short Rest. |